For those of you that do not know, I was selected as one of 26 people to be apart of a competition called The Fort Wayne's Smallest Winner. It is compared to the Biggest Loser TV show. It is a 15 week "boot camp" of workouts, nutrition classes and meeting with a behaviorist. We weigh in every Monday night and have our classes where we either learn about nutrition or how food effects our lives. Tuesday-Thursday we will have a killer group work out from 6am-7am! We also have to meet once a week with a personal trainer one on one and last a Saturday work out class. We also have to run a half marathon the last week of the competition. That should be fun.
My friend Carrie is the one that told me about this program and that I should apply. I mean lets face it I have struggle with my weight most of my life but mostly since college. I realized that I am not at a healthy weight and if we want to ever be able to have kids I need to get by butt and gear and change something. I am not going to give up on being a mom because of me being selfish and not wanting to take care of myself. I am ready to do this and start a whole new life and Andrew is along for the ride whether he likes it or not. :) He is very excited for me and he is there to push me through. He was going to apply with me but we could not fit it in between his school and work schedule. Even though he will not get to go through all the pain with me, he is going through it. Everything is changing in our house...food, workouts, and being more active and he is right there with me. I know I would not be able to do this with all of his love and support. He has even told me more than once, if he has to get out of bed to help get me out of bed because I can't move he will. I love you baby and thanks for your support.
We are just about to the end of our week one. It has been such a crazy week of everything new. Sunday was our orientation were we got to meet our teams, trainers, and everyone else that is involved. Plus we had our first weigh in. I am on the pink team...yes pink...my favorite color! :( The best part about is that I have a candy pink t-shirt that I have to wear to every workout that I do and any promotional event we do. Yep me in pink for the next 15 weeks. Super excited about that one! Our first weigh in was very scary to say the least. Girls weigh in with just shorts and a sports bra and guys shorts just like the show. So nothing like meeting all these new people about an hour before you pretty much strip down and stand on a stage in front of everyone and get weighed. Oh did I mention that everything is being video recorded and photos are being taken. I can just tell you we were all super excited about that. I am not going to tell everyone my weight because I am upset over it but I will let you know what I lose every week. I have a goal that I want to reach in the 15 weeks and I have a final goal weight I want to reach again. I don't want to set my goal to high for the 15 weeks because I don't want to get down on myself but mark my words I will make my goal weight.
On Monday, we had to fast all day and they did blood work so they can see what kind of difference we are making in our 15 weeks. We then had our first nutrition class and learned what we are supposed to eat. We are on a 1600 calorie diet and has it been a big change. I have really never thought about food that much in my life. I feel that is all I think about now. Planning everything to the T to what I am going to eat all day. It is a little overwhelming to be giving all this stuff on one night and change everything you have been doing your whole life the next day. I think that has been the hardest thing for me so far and just figuring that all out.
Tuesday morning was our first workout and I didn't know what to expect. Turns out it was not as bad as I thought it would be. I think they were just trying to figure out where everyone was physically. Don't get me wrong I was a little sore but I was still able to walk :) Wednesday on the other hand was a completely different story. We did step aerobics with one of our instructors Amber (I think...still learning names) and she is a 5'3" ball of fire! I figured I got this. I took this as one of my classes in college no big deal. I knew it was going to be hard but I did not figure I would have any problems...oh was I wrong. I had an emotional melt down when we were working out. I just got so mad at myself that I was having such a hard time doing this. I am an athlete, this is easy, is what my head was telling me. I ended up getting so mad at myself that I could not control my breathing and one of the directors Tina came over and starting helping me breath and calming me down. All I wanted to do was give a 110% and for them to know that I am here to do this and I was so afraid that they would not see that. She talked me down telling me that I was being to hard on myself and that they could see that I was giving it my everything and that I wanted to be there. It is just so hard for me to not go back to those basketball competitive days and want to kick everyone’s butt and be the best. That is always what I did...I had to be the best! Well to me, I wasn't doing my best...I could do better but I really couldn't. I was giving it everything I had but my brain just would not let me believe that. Tina said that if I needed to pick it up they would be in my face yelling at me and I told her she is a pussy cat to Dad and Coach Kessie yelling at me back in the basketball days. She laughed...she said she would just go crazy mom on me then (that is what past seasons call her). I know I just have to change my thinking. I am not that 18 year old basketball player that is in shape and that can play 40 minutes of basketball. That is where I have to get too. It is going to be a very long and hard road and I am ready for that. I just have stop being so hard on myself and know that I am doing the best that I can. Trust me...walking has become a challenge so far. Lets just say my co-workers know when I am getting out of my chair and my husband laughs at me telling me I look like an old woman they way I am walking but it is all for a great reason!
I promise you that all of my post will not be this long. I just wanted to get everyone up to speed that is going on. Tomorrow is another fun day. It is my first one on one with my personal trainer. I will let you know how it goes! Wish me luck!
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