End of Week 4

So, last night was the end of week 4.  It was kind of an upsetting weigh in for me.  I only lost 1.6 pounds for a total of 13.2 pounds in 4 weeks.  I know that it is good and it is a loss but for me I was not happy.  So I am going back to the beginning and starting over with what I am eating.  That has to be what it is.  I have good work outs so I am going to try something new this time.  I want to get everything I can out of this and I do not want to mess this up.  So this week it is all about kicking butt and I want to be the biggest loser next week for weigh in.

In other exciting news: this past Saturday, the "pink ladies" (my team and I), decided to do the spinning class for our Saturday workout.  All I have to say is that it was a killer workout in more ways than one.  We are going on 3 days later and I still feel like I have a bike seat up my butt!  Those bikes do not have comfy seats! I have a lot of padding back there but I don't know what would save my poor behind from that thing.  So I have decided if I do that class again, I am going to go buy an extra padded bike seat for it!

Saturday afternoon I also went and talked with the therapist that is working with us.  I really did not know if I wanted to go. I know I am already crazy!  Do I really need someone telling me that?  So I thought to myself, if I am going to give 110% to this new journey then I should go.  I have to say it was not that bad.  We talked about an hour and I did feel a lot better.  She still wants to meet again next week to continue to talk about things.  I know I have some deep issues about food or I would not be the way and weight that I am right now.  So I am hoping that we can figure out what is the true meaning of what is behind my weight. 

So last funny before I go...I swear everything funny likes to happen to me.  So last night I was working out on the elliptical before our final weigh in and there was an older man running on the treadmill beside me.  I was going very hard and any faster I probably would have fallen right off the machine.  The next thing I know I am "eating and breathing" the worst smell over!  The old man ripped a big fart; I have not smelled anything so bad in my life!  I came to a dead stop and about fell off!  I know that stuff kind of happens but a sorry would be nice but instead you just cover your own face!  So my lesson from last night...I am going to stay way for old men on treadmills!

Don't forget tonight is our show on ABC at 7:30pm.  Sorry if you are not local.

I almost forgot...I wanted to let you know Andrew has also lost weight.  He is up to 8 pounds in the 4 weeks.  Well he first gained 2 pounds from eating everything I could not have anymore and since then he has lost the 8 pounds.  I am so proud of him!

End of Week 3

So I am a little behind on posting this week seeing how it is already Wednesday.  Weigh in went well on Monday.  I lost 2.6 pounds for the week which is a total of 11.6 in 3 weeks.  I was hoping that my loss would be more around the 3.5 range but that just gives me something to work for this week.  The exciting part of the week is that the pink team was not the bottom team so we did not have to do extra credit this week.  My teammate Hannah was the biggest loser overall this week with 6.2 pounds.  I am so proud of her but I told her to watch out because it is on now! 

I think the best part of this past week was Saturday.  We have to do a workout class every Saturday morning.  Hannah and I decided to do Step.  We thought we do this every Wednesday with Amber we can do this.  Nope!  I think I did more laughing at us than working out.  It was so over our heads and we could not keep up.  I kept falling off the step.  I pretty sure we just gave the class some good entertainment.  I will say Hannah did better than I did.  So we planned on doing Groove this weekend which is a dance type class, but after we thought about it for a while we didn't think we would do much better at that.  Let’s face it...I cannot dance!

Last, I do have some great accomplishment that I would like to share.  A little back info first.  So for probably the last year or better to put my wedding ring on I would either have to put it on and off using lotion or cold soap and water.  This week :) I can now take my rings on and off using nothing!  The ring that I wear on my right hand is almost too big and I will probably have to stop wearing it here in the next week or so because it will be too big...not that I am complaining any.  The second great thing that happened to me Tuesday morning was that I fit into an old pair of jeans!  Oh ya...I was not ready to try on my old jeans just in case they did not fit and I didn't want to get depressed about it but I really needed some new jeans and I did not want to go spend 50 bucks on a pair of jeans that I might only wear for a week or two.  So when I tried them on I thought I was going to be sick.  I could not believe that they pulled right up and I even have room to spare!  I had to call Andrew because I was just so excited I could not even stand it.  All he did was laugh at me because he could hardly understand what I was telling him.  Once he figured it out he was still laughing at me.  He loves when I go crazy funny like that :)

You will be glad to know that I did not have any emotional break downs this week.  I think I am finally getting into the swing of things and getting used to everything changing.  I still have my days that I am a bit emotional but I think that is still just from being tired.  I really never realized how crazy our lives are.  Now with doing this, work, and my personal business stuff I really do nothing else.  I feel bad because I sometime feel that I am not being the good wife that I should be.  I am used to cooking and cleaning every night.  Now, I could not tell you the last time I really cooked and cleaning is something that might happen.  Andrew is being so good about things.  He does not complain at all that there is really no food in the house and that he is now the one doing laundry for me.  I feel bad because he has enough of his own stuff to worry about between school and work.  Maybe one of the prizes should be a maid cleaning service because I could really use one around here!  Thanks for all of your help baby...Love you!

Last, I just wanted to let you know that they will be airing an update show of some kind on Tuesday, April 26 at 7:30 pm on ABC (21).  I really don't know what they are going to talk about or show all I know is that it is a half hour long.  Well I think that is about it for this great week.  Off to bed so I can get up early and do a great workout.

Hope you all have a wonderful Easter holiday!

End Of Week 2

What a crazy week this has been.  We are now finished with week 2.  I have had a ton of ups and downs this week.  Last night was our second weigh in and I lost 3.4 pounds.  So that is a total of 9 pounds in two weeks.  I am very proud of myself for what I have accomplished so far.  This has not been easy by any means.  I knew I would be working very hard physically but I don't think I realized how emotional I would be.  Wednesday night I had another full on emotional break down.  Andrew and Carrie were ready to get me some Zanex to calm me down (they said this to make me laugh) :) I know it is just because I have held in all of my emotions in for all of these years all bottled up and now it is coming out with this new lifestyle change that I have been doing.  I guess I never realized how much my weigh really affected me emotionally.  I guess when you tell yourself something for so long you finally start believing it whether it is the truth or now.  The other hardest part is learning how to put myself 1st.  I don't think I have ever done that before.  I want to take care of everyone else and put everyone else’s needs before my own.  I have realized do this I do have to put me first or I am not going to make it through.  I have to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks and trying to please everyone else and just take care of me for once in my life.  I give Andrew and Carrie all the credit in the world for being there for me and giving me great advice.  Love you both.

I do I have say I am very proud of myself for this past week.  We had photo shoot and that is not the easiest place to be on a diet.  I had major self control and I never ate one donut or Panera Bagel (even though I REALLY wanted too!!!)  I stuck to what I had for lunch and followed what I was supposed to.  I now know if I can make it through photo shoot and all of those temptations I know I have the strength and will power to do this.

I know this is going to be one long and ruff week.  Last night at weigh in my team the pink team came in last place for total weigh loss as a team.  So with that being said we get to be at the gym at 5:30 am to do an additional workout with Rick before our other workout.  If it was anything like today it will be a LONG week.  We got to run stairs while carrying 10 pound weights.  Just have to say not to fun!  I look at it this way, all it is going to do is kick my butt and give me a bigger weight loss next week.  So let’s bring on the fun!  Another great thing that is happening this week is that Carrie says she is going to start working out with me at night.  I don't think she knows what she just got herself into.  It might get a little ruff and tuff in our house pretty soon. :)

Thanks again for everyone support and advice.  It really keeps me going!  So off to week 3 and lets see what it brings.

First Week Complete

So our first week is done!  I made it through alive!  Saturday was my first "class" that I went to.  I went to the water aerobics class.  It was really fun.  When we were doing the workout I was like this is not that bad.  Oh was I wrong!  When I went to get out of the pool and my legs started to come out of the water I could hardly walk!  It kicked my butt and I loved it!  I am looking forward to this Saturday's class.  I did take Sunday off.  I figured that I had worked hard and I could have a day off to rest and give my body a break for the day. 

Monday was my first time working out by myself and I was a little nervous but I knew I could do it.  My plan was to get up and go to the spinning class for my last workout before weigh in.  Needless to say I did not make it to the 5:15 class!  So I did an hour on the elliptical machine.  Pretty much thought I was going to die but I had it in my head that I was going to do it no matter what it took.  An hour later I finished!  I did it!  I went over 3 miles in one hour.  I was so excited that I made it but I was ready to die afterwards and unable to feel my legs. 

Monday night was our first weigh in and I was very nervous about it.  I was glad when I got to class and I was not the only one that felt that way.  We had all worked so hard this week and we just wanted to see the difference.  Well being the wonderful pink team we get to weigh in first.  My 3 teammates that weighed in before me kicked butt...and now it was my turn.  When I finally got on the scale and looked at the weight I knew that I had lost but I could not remember my full number from last way in so I could not figure out what I lost.  So after what felt like FOREVER they finally held up the board with my loss...5.6 pounds!!!!!!  I was so excited.  My goal I set for myself was 5 pounds so I was so happy to beat that.  It made me feel so great to know all of my hard work had paid off.  Now for this week I want to loss even more!  It feels so good to see that number finally going down!  We also found out this morning that out of the 5 teams we came in 3 place for weight loss as a team.  I thought that was pretty good.

So now we are off to week 2 and I had a great workout today.  We got to box for the first time today.  Those of you that went to South Whitley Elem. will understand this comment.  The trainer that we had for today was new and she was a younger version of Ms. Gill!  I felt like a little kid again in elem school and scared out of my mind.  I think she might have even been worse than Ms Gill.  I would be very happy if I did not have to work out with her again...she just scared me.  I told Andrew that he better watch out now because I have boxing gloves and if he makes me mad I might have to get this out and show him whose boss! 

Before I wrap this one up my husband told me I needed to let you all in on our fun text conversation today.  A friend of mine told me that his wife was so touched on how supportive that Andrew was through this journey and how he is behind me 100%.  Andrew's comment about that..."I like being behind you...It's a great view...Baby Got Back!!"  My answer was just oh lord...that is what I love most about my husband.  No matter how much I hurt or how bad of a day I am having he can make me laugh like no other!  I love you babe!

I don't know how much time I will have to blog this week since I am at photo shoot all week but I would check back next Monday to see what the new weight loss is.

Work Banner

I forgot to add this to my last post.  This is the banner that I get to look at every day at work.  I am go grateful for all of my co-workers that are behind me 100%!  Thanks guys!

Personal Workout

Well today was my first day with my one on one with our personal trainer.  I did not figure it would be to bad...and I was right.  Today he just mostly showed me what exercises we were going to be doing and how to do them correctly.  Go figure since I have been a previous athlete he said he was not going to be nice to me.  I was waiting on that one.  But I do have to say that I am excited about these work outs.  They are going to more about weight lifting then cardo.  So what out this girl is going to be packing some nice guns soon!  :)

The biggest thing I need to get worked out is food.  I never really thought about it but when you are on a diet all you think about is food.  You have to.  I have never really planned out my meals before and that is what is so hard for me.  So that is what I have been doing today.  I took the day off so I can sit down and read all the new material that they have given us and try and rap my head around it.  I do have to say though I am kind of scared.  I need to go to the store and I just hope that I do not get overwhelmed by everything.  I just want to make the right choices and not fail.  I know I will have some failures along the way but I would rather not have any.

Last...I am going to tell on myself.  I did the one thing this morning that they told us that we could not do the whole 15 weeks!  I weighed myself.  :(  I know it is not all about the weight on the scale, which if it is close to the one we weigh on I have lost some but I think it was more just mental for me.  I needed to know that everything I was doing, I was doing right and the weight was coming off.  I think that is my biggest fear in all of this is that the weight will not come off no matter how hard I work.  I know what Rick (the creator of the program) says is true that "the scale does not lie" but I am just so scared about the scale.  I know it is not all about the number on the scale and as long as you are healthy and at a good weight you should be happy.  I guess I am just afraid that the scale is never going to move off of this weight that I have been at for so long.  I just have to keep remembering to work hard and give it my all and it will come off...just have to have faith!

I also just want to thank everyone for you wonderful comments and posts.  I just can not believe how much love and support I have within all of my family and friends.  I am just so blessed!  Even my brother in law JC said he would not tell me what I want to hear but what I need to hear.  That is why I love you!

Thanks again...Love you all.  Tomorrow first pool workout!  I can't wait! :)