Personal Workout

Well today was my first day with my one on one with our personal trainer.  I did not figure it would be to bad...and I was right.  Today he just mostly showed me what exercises we were going to be doing and how to do them correctly.  Go figure since I have been a previous athlete he said he was not going to be nice to me.  I was waiting on that one.  But I do have to say that I am excited about these work outs.  They are going to more about weight lifting then cardo.  So what out this girl is going to be packing some nice guns soon!  :)

The biggest thing I need to get worked out is food.  I never really thought about it but when you are on a diet all you think about is food.  You have to.  I have never really planned out my meals before and that is what is so hard for me.  So that is what I have been doing today.  I took the day off so I can sit down and read all the new material that they have given us and try and rap my head around it.  I do have to say though I am kind of scared.  I need to go to the store and I just hope that I do not get overwhelmed by everything.  I just want to make the right choices and not fail.  I know I will have some failures along the way but I would rather not have any.

Last...I am going to tell on myself.  I did the one thing this morning that they told us that we could not do the whole 15 weeks!  I weighed myself.  :(  I know it is not all about the weight on the scale, which if it is close to the one we weigh on I have lost some but I think it was more just mental for me.  I needed to know that everything I was doing, I was doing right and the weight was coming off.  I think that is my biggest fear in all of this is that the weight will not come off no matter how hard I work.  I know what Rick (the creator of the program) says is true that "the scale does not lie" but I am just so scared about the scale.  I know it is not all about the number on the scale and as long as you are healthy and at a good weight you should be happy.  I guess I am just afraid that the scale is never going to move off of this weight that I have been at for so long.  I just have to keep remembering to work hard and give it my all and it will come off...just have to have faith!

I also just want to thank everyone for you wonderful comments and posts.  I just can not believe how much love and support I have within all of my family and friends.  I am just so blessed!  Even my brother in law JC said he would not tell me what I want to hear but what I need to hear.  That is why I love you!

Thanks again...Love you all.  Tomorrow first pool workout!  I can't wait! :)