What a crazy week this has been. We are now finished with week 2. I have had a ton of ups and downs this week. Last night was our second weigh in and I lost 3.4 pounds. So that is a total of 9 pounds in two weeks. I am very proud of myself for what I have accomplished so far. This has not been easy by any means. I knew I would be working very hard physically but I don't think I realized how emotional I would be. Wednesday night I had another full on emotional break down. Andrew and Carrie were ready to get me some Zanex to calm me down (they said this to make me laugh) :) I know it is just because I have held in all of my emotions in for all of these years all bottled up and now it is coming out with this new lifestyle change that I have been doing. I guess I never realized how much my weigh really affected me emotionally. I guess when you tell yourself something for so long you finally start believing it whether it is the truth or now. The other hardest part is learning how to put myself 1st. I don't think I have ever done that before. I want to take care of everyone else and put everyone else’s needs before my own. I have realized do this I do have to put me first or I am not going to make it through. I have to stop worrying about what everyone else thinks and trying to please everyone else and just take care of me for once in my life. I give Andrew and Carrie all the credit in the world for being there for me and giving me great advice. Love you both.
I do I have say I am very proud of myself for this past week. We had photo shoot and that is not the easiest place to be on a diet. I had major self control and I never ate one donut or Panera Bagel (even though I REALLY wanted too!!!) I stuck to what I had for lunch and followed what I was supposed to. I now know if I can make it through photo shoot and all of those temptations I know I have the strength and will power to do this.
I know this is going to be one long and ruff week. Last night at weigh in my team the pink team came in last place for total weigh loss as a team. So with that being said we get to be at the gym at 5:30 am to do an additional workout with Rick before our other workout. If it was anything like today it will be a LONG week. We got to run stairs while carrying 10 pound weights. Just have to say not to fun! I look at it this way, all it is going to do is kick my butt and give me a bigger weight loss next week. So let’s bring on the fun! Another great thing that is happening this week is that Carrie says she is going to start working out with me at night. I don't think she knows what she just got herself into. It might get a little ruff and tuff in our house pretty soon. :)
Thanks again for everyone support and advice. It really keeps me going! So off to week 3 and lets see what it brings.
Proud of you!
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